reflection

reflection

In our reflection, we could see our face, our body, our imperfections, our eyes dried out of tears, our lips synching with the sound of our favorite tune, our everything, and of course our irritating pimples.

In our reflection we could see us evolving through years of experience and we could see that we develop ourselves, and as we grow we kind of leaving the OLD path and sometimes our old ways.

People change, people grow, people live and people die.

After I looked at myself in the mirror I noticed that I’m not the OLD me anymore, I’ve changed, I saw a new person in my reflection and I saw someone who realized that changes sometimes is kind of awkward.

It started when I was 15 years-old when my parents left to work overseas; it was a sad moment for me.

There I was standing in front of the airport, with me are my sister and my brother pretending to be brave and strong and not crying in front of me.

It’s been 6 years and here I am now, a 20 year-old gay guy who grieves for something intangible something a lot like love….

In terms of love, its hard for me. Nobody wants me except for my friends. In my situation people are discriminative, cynical and judgmental.  It turned out to be ambiguous, I can’t even see my reflection when I’m crying because of love. It’s blur and it’s painful…. But that’s love u can’t find it I think I don’t want to depend on this saying but they said “let love find you” I’ve been in love with myself, with my friends and of course with my family. But I’m still longing for something, for that right person to come. But while I wait I will see life In a new direction that will lead me to God. He helped me so much that I forgot to mention him or noticed that he was there standing beside me looking at me and protecting me…

Being realistic is hard, I was once an idealistic person, I believed in my dreams, in my visions, in my illusions and my ambitions. I was dreaming a lot of becoming this or this or this one, but I know I have a purpose in this world that I haven’t figured out yet but something will come up. They’ll see…. I’ll see, we’ll see…

Gullible. It kills you especially  at this age, you should be more grown up when you’ve done so many mistakes and as we know mistakes replicates in to experience and experiences give us lessons and that lesson will make you a smart person: specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and time conscious. At the age of 20 it will give you much realization that can cause u something for the betterment of your life, experience wasn’t a choice it wasn’t optional it is meant to be. Being stupid is natural just don’t let it get you…

U could talk in front of your mirror some say it’s a way of communicating with yourself, crying in front it must give u shivers but its normal you’re not crazy you’re not insane, it gives us motivation to do right things every day, I mean we can’t see us walking, we can’t see us talking, we can’t see us laughing and crying or sobbing, but don’t be afraid to face yourself. It is you nobody else just you and you…..

LEARN to get up and start again

LIVE life, because life is too short, don't waste time.

LOVE like u never love before...it is very important that u love yourself, your friends your family and especially love GOD...

DON'T ABANDON YOUR DREAMS, it is attainable! 

Reflect everyday…..